TA blogs by Ayumi Hamasaki written in 2004.
Ayu is suddenly 7 years old.
No. ---
Name: ayu
Date: 13th April 2004, 01:58
translator: masa, mori
I have received a great number of messages regarding "Super TV" today. They are increasing so rapidly in number that I can hardly follow them all. Ayu has been reading them for about two hours.
My heart is very calm now. There might have been some scenes from which you felt like turning your eyes away. But perhaps you realized what I meant to say, looking at my smile on the last scene, didn't you?
I never regret anything, because you are all by my side now. It makes me happy more than anything else. I believed at that time and I believe now that when a human lose something, they also gain something.
And above all, I always believe in you. Let's stay together during my seventh anniversary, too!!!
With love ... ayu.
p.s. Ayu loves your smiles, and wants to see them just as you want to see Ayu's smile. ♡
Ayu appears again.
No. ---
Name: ayu
Date: 13th April 2004, 14:01
translator: masa, mori
I've been finding the time to read more of your messages. I've come here again so I can talk a bit more.
I feel I aimed at perfection so much that I had no composure from A BEST to the Dome Tour, which was mainly focused on in the program yesterday. My mind was always stressed, and I think I could not compromise, fail nor even forgive. I don't mean at all to seem like I regretted my choices in the past, the path on which I chose myself and walked on. I only like to say that it's different now.
Now I think I may fail, I may go badly and sometimes I may look uncool or miserable, as I'm a human. And I can laugh at, forgive, and admit my own faults.
I received a lot of hearty messages that you are proud of being Ayu fans. But it is me who should be saying that. I'm thankful to and proud of living in the same age and walking together with you. Each of you may have your own problems, but let's enjoy the time we can spend together to our hearts' content!!! Let's get old together. (laugh)
As there are many questions about my ear, here I have to answer in my own way. Honestly speaking, I'm not feeling down about this. Because all of you listen to my songs and not my left ear, don't you?
Do you want to say, "Don't settle it so easily"? (laugh) But, that way of thinking is truly enough to me. So, don't worry about this matter!!!!!
I was saved by love, though I tried to keep love away.
Hooot!!!
No. 107
Name: ayu
Date: 20th April 2004, 12:56
translator: unrecorded
Today is also very hot~
I was happy when I saw the scenery and flowers outside the moving car when I opened the window. But it was a bit embarrassing whenever my eyes met with a pedestrian waiting at the junction for their green light.
And now, the concert tour is done.
The last location for the tour, Sendai, was so energizing. It was a really great place with bright feelings.
Everyone, thank you so much!!!
But... I felt a bit of loneliness after the concert... yeah.
The staff and dancers are also feeling like that. They were saying things like
"It's only just finished and we're already feeling strange! Shall we tour around Japan again??" Hahahaha
This year's hot summer is coming...